So I'm faaaaar from what you might call an "active" artist on DA but I thought it only fair to write a little note letting you wonderful folks that I'm going to be absent from posting for a little bit in all likelihood. Everybody's got creative struggles and while I wouldn't say that I'm suffering from a block, I do feel like I've gotten a little derailed creatively. I have a tendency to always be thinking of the viewer as I'm painting and this can sometimes be crippling as I try to paint what I think people want to see, rather than make work from a place of sincerity or even vulnerability, which I think are paramount when it comes to creating your best work.
It probably makes me sound like a stereotypical emotionally unstable artist or something but I'm hoping that taking a month off to just make things with no intention of showing them will enable me to make some things that I feel like are exploring ideas, techniques and subject matter I want to explore. In all likelihood I'll come back and it will be like nothing has changed, but for me the interim will feel very liberating and I'll feel more confident about the stuff I'm showing.
I could just drop off the map and not tell anybody why, but I feel like I do that too often and I also would like to make the point that everyone suffers from insecurities and frustrations no matter how experienced you are. It takes a lot of effort to be completely confident in making the work you feel you should be making.
Thanks for reading.
Be back soon.